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I would just like to rant a little bit on an issue that has been literally itching in my pants for quite some time now.  The issue deals with the whole call center "industry" that seems to be booming in this country. Now, why would I even write something on this topic anyway?  Well, maybe it’s because I care, or maybe it’s because I am disgusted by what I see everyday on the streets of Ortigas. Surely, the money is good.  There is no doubt about that. They will teach you "Call center english", so you can conversate with your fellow call center agents as if you have been speaking english your whole f*cking life.  Now, aint that fun? Well guess what all you pretty boys & girls?  This is your wake up call. Before you post yourself on the ground floor of your building, smoking your cigarette and littering the butt on the street,  wearing your greenhills gucci sunglasses, just imagine where you will be five years from now.  You just wasted your mom and pop’s savings putting you through college.  Let’s just say you finished accounting in college.  Do you seriously think you can add your call center job as work experience?  I think not. Let’s say that something happens to your job, maybe the company closes, or maybe you just got tired of answering the freaking phone for five f*cking years of your life. You decide that you want a real career, so you go and apply for a job as an accountant.  Surprise mofo, what you learned from college 5 years ago, aint gonna do sh!t for you now.  And do you seriously think that you can even remember everything you learned in college?  There are many fresh grads out there with the knowledge, that can blow you away from that entry level position you are applying for.  People are mean’t to sleep at night and be awake in the morning.  You’re giving up your health to earn enough for that starbucks coffee that you’re drinking everyday.  Now, is that even practical?  Stop making excuses that you can’t find a job in your field. The truth is, there are companies that are being built everyday. And if still you can’t find a job, ask yourself why you took that course in the first place. Wake up people! Don’t even try to tell me off in your call center english, because I will tell you to your face how stupid you really look.  To call my call center friends, im sorry im just speaking my mind :). You have a problem?  Call me, gets?

It was my lunch break, so I decided to have lunch at the mall.  I get tired of eating rice everyday, and I wanted something other than RD food.  Right when I walked in the mall, I noticed that the stores were all changing.  Seems that the xmas season is finally starting.  Stores are starting to sell more xmas inspired products like candles and displays.  That’s not the bad part. What made it worse is the xmas music that started playing right when I walked in the department store.  The more I heard the xmas song, the more I started hating the idea of xmas.  This coming xmas will probably be my worse xmas ever.  Im not expecting any gifts from anyone, and plus i’ll be alone and away from the people who I trully love.  Im really starting to hate this time of year, because it’s getting closer and closer to the so called holiday season.  For once in my life, I am wishing that xmas never comes.  Im starting to become a scrooge, sad to say, but it’s the truth. Bah Humbug! Give me just one good reason why I should be even celebrating this time of the year. There’s nothing I am thankful for, and there’s no one I want to wish a merry xmas to.  You think even my parents will be happy at a time like this?  They probably wish I was there to celebrate it with them.  But no, one stupid decision on my part, and my life, as well as my family’s life gets all screwd up.  Sometimes I wish I joined the army, so i’ll have a reason to shoot someone. F#@K!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! 

UNTITLED

How can I explain all this to you?
When everything I feel inside
Are lies that I tell myself
And a feeling of dread
That even my bright smile can’t hide

And I really think that it’ll never change
Because while Im getting older
Im trying to find the reasons
But the answers fade before I reach them

I look at your face
And try not to taste my rage
I’d like to think that someday
I’ll look at you and not hate you as I do

But you distorted my mind
You destructed my soul
You contamindated my heart
And now I can’t find my true self

I blame fate
Not to blame you
Maybe I’ll see the truth someday
But now everything I can see
Is blood on your hands
And tears in my eyes…

Everyday is a new day.  I go on living, but something from my past keeps holding me back.  I started a new regement for myself, which includes an alteration of the way i view my life and the way I live it.  Not a total transformation, but more of a rejuvenation for my body and mind.  My problem still holds me from achieving what it is I am trying to reach like chains attached to my neck.  I want to find a solution for this hindrance, but the solution entitles myself to bring back the past.  The past that I trully want to put behind.  I find ways to blank out the past, like a temporary fix to my predicament.  I found a new appreciation for walking…